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Friday, May 14, 2010

I got to know about B.A.B through some google researches, and happened to came across a B.A.B makeover session last year. I had always wanted to have a makeover kind of portfolio taken for myself, to help boost my self confidence. I was a girl with very low self-esteem. To a point where I do not find a need to take any effort to doll myself up, or to treat myself to pretty clothes. Also, being a plus-size, shopping for pretty clothes of my size is quite like a mission to me, not forgetting about it’s sky high prices if they’re available. Shopping with my petite little sister doesnt help much as we’re both wearing very different sizes of clothes.

A photo of how I dressed myself up before.

A few days before my photoshoot, I shared with Erica, Founder of B.A.B, about my low self-esteem, and how not confident I was of myself. I then went ahead for the makeover photoshoot organized by B.A.B. During my photoshoot, I was quite shy and I have absolutely no confidence in my poses, my body and myself. It was only when Erica helped to direct and guide me through the poses and smiles when I feel more comfortable. She has taught me not to be bothered about how other people are going to think about me and such, as long as we are happy and confident with ourself. She has also taught me how to be comfortable in my own skin, and with my own body.

A selected picture of my Mini Makeover Photoshoot published in Chic Magazine.

Anyway, right after the photoshoot, I realized that B.A.B has many pretty plus sized apparels at affordable prices. Thus, I could not help thinking why shouldnt’ I treat myself to pretty clothings like these. After a couple of moments, a workshop was held to teach us how to wear a bra in a proper manner, and also the choosing of the correct bra sizes. I have learnt quite a lot from this workshop.

After attending the makeover photoshoot and workshop, I decided to be part of B.A.B mailing list where I will be updated on the latest updates on apparels or even events. One day, I saw the B.A.B updates on a upcoming Fashion Show and I was really excited, but at the same time I didnt have the confident that I have what it takes. Despite the low confidence in myself, my family and friends urged me to participate in the B.A.B Fashion show, so I decided to give it a try, and submitted my application.

I am honoured to be selected out of the 50 over plus-sized girls, to be one of the B.A.B Fashion Show Runway Model. I was both excited and over the moon. There were 3 rehearsals in all before the Big Day, and I missed my first rehearsal due to being infected with H1N1 virus and was hospitalized at that time. Missing my first rehearsal made me even more nervous of my performance.

When the big day has finally arrived, I was extremely nervous, as I have no experience in walking the runway, let alone wearing a 2 piece infront of so many people. Trying to keep my mind from running wild and mad from the loud booming music, I tried to stay composed and go ahead, whilst remembering what I have learnt from B.A.B. The poses, the smiles, the confidence in my eyes… etc. And, there I go, strutting down the runway, with the confidence that I have never displayed, showing people how comfortable I am in my skin and how confident I am with my body. With many people cheering and clapping down there, it is a feeling that is indescribable yet unforgettable. It was really a priceless experience for me.

After the Fashion Show, many people told us how well we’ve done. And it really makes me feel so good and confident about myself. Now, I am so into getting myself all dolled up, with eyeliner, lipstick and a little cherry blush cheeks, not forgetting all my pretty dresses and clothings from B.A.B. Many of my family, relatives and friends has noticed the change in me. The change of being bothered to make myself a more confident person that is comfortable in my own skin.

I owe this whole experience to Erica and B.A.B for giving me the opportunity to help me nurture my confidence. If not for her help, guidiance and encouragement, I would still be dressing up with my shabby oversized tshirts with bermudas.

Now, I am a contestant in the Miss/Ms Amazing Plus Size Beauty Pageant. I decided to participate in this contest, not hoping that I could win but just to experience this, as this is kind of a once in a life time experience for me.

To: All Plus Size Ladies out there,
It is those imperfections in you that made you so perfect of you are now. It is not what others think or feel about you that matters the most, but what you think and feel about yourself that really matters the most. LOVE YOURSELF.

Once again, I would like to thank Erica, B.A.B, my friends, loved ones and you plus-sized babes for your unconditional love and support that has helped me become who I am today, A Confident Plus Size Prettygirl

A picture taken recently.